Today we will again talk a bit about love. We will again step in the Mansarovar of love. Today we will again step into that enjoyable water of love, we will take a dip into it, however prior to entering into Mansarovar, one has to attain that greatness and piousness, because only a pious person can attain greatness in life. One who is pious can sustain the pain of remaining away from the lover and one who can bear this pain can attain love in life. There is no union in love, union is the last step of love and when lovers get united, love comes to an end. What all enjoyment is present in love, can’t remain there once there is union, and to attain that love, you will have to step into Mansarovar, you will have to energize your heart, and it is not possible by means of your brain because there are no clauses or conditions in love.
There is no sense of anxiety of knowing something exists in love. This is just a force…what is said is completed at that very moment. If you are asked to jump into Mansarovar, then you jumped into it without even thinking for a single second how deep it is, whether there is any danger associated with it of getting drowned…and one who never got drowned can’t get that enjoyment in life called love.
And to attain this love, the devotees imagine themselves as beloved – open hair, sad and heavy eyes, fatigued face, eyes full of tears, throat full of pain..and it appears as if there is nothing else in this world apart from the lover. It appears as if the life is a burden, it appears as if there is no fun in this life, there is no enjoyment in this life. However, only those people can enjoy this feeling who has drowned oneself in love. Only that person can enjoy this feeling who has been departed from the lover. The heart gets pierced in this process, and getting heart pierced in love is a fortune of life.
Radha attained this fortune with dancing and enjoying this pain. When Krishna left Gokul, Radha completely got cut-off from the entire society, She had no other feeling than to see Krishna in life. Radha didn’t open Her eyes in entire life. Udho came and tried to convince Her, friends came and tried to convince Her to open the eyes.
However, Radha said, “For whom shall I open the eyes? What shall I see now? What all I had to see, I have seen in my life and I don’t want to see anything else in my entire life. Now only Krishna exists in these eyes….that great hypnotic personality….that sweet smile….Krishna playing flute…His smile is the treasure of my life…and I have stored this invaluable treasure in my eyes. What if I open my eyes and all my treasure gets disappeared, then what will I be left with in my life?
Nothing has to be expressed in this story of love, love is an unexpressed story. If you speak out, then there is no love. How much can one express love by speaking out? Because it is an ending lake, where the more we swim the more we get drowned into it. The joy of getting drowned in love was taken by Radha in Her life, it was enjoyed by Meera in Her life. Meera loved in an environment where there was obstacles on each and every step, where there were lots of rules and regulations for women and still She stepped down to road.
She didn’t pay any attention to what people will think about Her? She just had one feeling that I am loving Krishna. And She expressed Her love in these two line:
Now there is no other person in my life, I just have only one person in life with whom I have unified myself and I don’t need any other person in my life. I just want to enjoy my life. I have witnessed the joy of life and due to which I dance in my life, I have put my life on a bet and since I have worn the musical anklet and Krishna has heard them, now how can I take them out?
Pag Ghungru Baandh Meera Nachi Re, Main To Mere Naaraayan Ki Ho Gayi Aap Hi Daasi Re, Pag Ghungru…………………!
I have easily found Him, I didn’t have to put any great efforts to find Him. Where there is bond between the souls, the hearts will definitely match, heart gets attached with the heart and the two definitely gets united one day.
Main Virhin Bauri Bhai…..she has gone mad. Now I don’t have any sort of intelligence left with me and neither do I want to keep any sort of knowledge with myself because where there is brain, love can’t exist there, selfishness can exist there, there a business of body, body can exist but love can’t exist there. Its just a business of body with the husband, he gives food, clothes, home….and in turn buys body. This trade occurs in marriage but not in love. Love is eternal, there is no selfish desires in love, it is the process of handing over one’s life in someone’s hand without expecting anything in return. There exists no regret if that person can’t be attained in life, rather just a feeling exists that the person should remember me.
This body is burning day and night in this pain of being away from the lover…and not only body, this heart is also burning. However, this joy can only be attained by those who has ever loved in life. This fire can be attained by few fortunate ones only. One who has not loved in life, he has attained nothing in life, because the pleasure of life is in love, pleasure of life is in that state where the lover and beloved are distant apart.
Nothing is obtained in love, a person just gets pain, sorrow, loneliness. However there exists a pleasure in this state of love. There is a pleasure in this pain because the person always has a great wish, a goal in life and that is keep the faith of meeting the beloved even to the very last breath of life.
It has become immensely difficult to live without my love in this world, it appears as if it has become difficult to even breathe in life. Piv Bina To Jeevanaa Jag Mein Bhaari Jaan,Piyaa Mile To Jeevnaa Nahi Tara Chute Praan.I can survive only if there is a hope of meeting my love and if there is no hope, then it is better to die and get freed from this body. If I can’t meet him, then at least I can go to that place where he resides and see him from a distant place….and then to sit close to him, continuously gaze him, enjoy each and every moment of my life and if my lover is not here, then there is no significance of this life.
Every moment of this life is pain for me. It appears as if someone is hurting me with a burning stick every moment. It appears as if the pain is stinging me again and again. Every time it appears as if this pain will reduce me to ashes. Chhina Chhina Dukhiya Dagidhaye Virah Vithaa Tana Peer…..there is a pain in this body and I am enjoying this pain….Ghari Palak Mein Vidasiye Jyon Machhali Bin Neer……everything around me will come to an end in a moment. As a fish can’t live without water, similarly I can’t imagine to live without my beloved. What a tragedy that what I wish for isn’t getting fulfilled? And if this wish of mine can’t get fulfilled then there is no use of this life, there is no meaning of this life.
I don’t want anything, but this pain has made a deep wound in my heart. Similar to a deep wound which pains a lot, this wound in my heart is creating unbearable pain in my life, my eyes will continue to remain in pain till the time I don’t see my lover, what can I do with my eyes? I can console my body, I can console my heart, but these eyes……
Meera is saying – When will you meet me, because my entire body is burning….it has become full of anxiety and pain. It appears as if a saw is cutting my heart….and with whom can I share my feelings, who will understand it? Now no joy, no amusement, no livelihood exists in life, Virhin Par Pinjra Chhina, Piva Ko Kaun Sunave Re….who will tell him that my entire body has dried up like a thorn, who will tell him that this body is just like a skeleton only now.
He is sitting at his place, unknown of the fact that someone is waiting for him. That Lord is unaware of the fact that His devotee is burning her body in the process of waiting for Him. If someone is unaware of this thing, then whom should I tell this thing, who will make Him understand? It is similar to –
If I die and even if my body is thrown away at some unfrequently visited place, then crow please eat each and every part of my body except my eyes. I pray to you to leave my eyes as it is…..show this mercy upon me, eat all that you want from my body but don’t eat my eyes, let them remain as it is because I have this faith that he will definitely come on my death. And if he will come and I can’t see him, then you can’t even think of how much intolerable pain I will have to suffer.
I know this thing – that you may not come till the time I am alive, you have this habit however I am very much sure that you will definitely come at my death….and when you will come, I will see you and all my pains, my suffering will fade away at that very moment.
Without you, I am feeling similar to a lily flower which wilts when it doesn’t see moon. It might have the supply of water, air and everything, but if the moon doesn’t rise, lily flower doesn’t blossom. And the moment the moon rises, lily flower blossoms again and emits a divine fragrance and it appears as if no other flower can match that fragrance.
Similar to the process where the lily flowers wilts away when it can’t see the moon, my body has also wilted without seeing you. There is no radiance in this body now and neither do I wish to keep any radiance in this body, there is no significance of this body in my life. What can’t be used by you is useless for me. I am carrying this body like a dead body is carried on the shoulders and I am still moving forward and I am not aware of the fact that my feets are taking me. What should I do? I don’t have any knowledge.
You should understand this thing clearly that my soul will not leave this body until you come and see me….it is possible for me to survive like this for next two-three months or for next twothree years. People will come and ask me if my soul is not leaving my body? My soul will not leave my body because if I have started my life waiting for you, then I will take my last breath only after seeing you. The day you will meet me, I will completely capture you in my eyes, I will captivate you in my eyes and then my eyes will automatically close forever.
I want to transform my eyes into a room and to place my pupil as a bed in it. And I will use my eyelids as a curtain and will try to please you but I will place that curtain such that –
Even I think this much that when I will hide you in my eyes, then no one except me will be able to see you. I will sing, dance, smile and will do whatever is need to please you…..and that is the true pleasure of my life….and if I am unable to appease you then there will be no significance of my life. I just have one goal in my life and that is to wait for you. I just have a single hope that one day you will definitely come….I will call you, I will speak out your name and you will come and meet me.
-SadGuruDev KailashChand Shrimali Ji
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