It is said that the greatest relationship in this world that of a lover and his beloved. This same relationship must be in between a Guru and a Disciple. The same relationship must be in between a God and His lover. If an appointment was made to meet at 3 pm and if the beloved doesn’t reach there on time, then there must be an anxiety, he must wander around madly, he must look for her in all the direction and should then take a look on her photograph and should again look around for her.
I am putting before you an incident which took place many years ago. I was in Jodhpur at that time and it was summers. There is a place called Hapur. A smart, healthy, charming man who was well dressed up came to me. He asked – “May I sit on the chair?”. I said – “Yes, sit.” He sat down on the chair and took out a photograph from his pocket and said, “I want to share something with you”. I replied, “Please do it quickly or else….it is already 12 o’clock now. You can visit me again at 4 pm.” “No Guruji ! Just one or two minutes is all that I need.”, he said.
He again took the photograph out of his pocket and then again put it back into the place from where he took it out. He appeared to be from a decent family, however I have faced several forms of disciples in my life, similar to the way Gods appear in different forms. You have a single God in your life and that is your Guru, however my God (my disciples) have thousand forms. I asked, “Are you a Christian?”
“No Guruji ! I am Hindu, pure Hindu.” I said, “Fine, you are Hindu. However you had to share something with me. ” “Yes Guru Ji!”….and again took out the photograph. I said to him, “Have to escaped from any mental asylum? Are you coming from Shahadara? Where do you live?” He replied, “Sir, I am from Hapur.” I said, “There is no pagal khana in Hapur, it is either in Agra or in Shahadara…then how come you came from Hapur?” He replied, “Guruji do you think that I am mad?”
“Your behavior is saying it all. It appears as if either you are mentally disturbed or you have ran out of that place.”, I said. “No Guruji! It is not like this, let me first explain my issue to you.”, he replied. I said, “Until you speak out, how will I come to know about your issue.” He said, “Guruji…what should I tell you…I hope you won’t take it otherwise. Look Guruji! I want to confront one thing to you.” “You should tell me.” “You won’t feel offended, I hope.” will slap you. I won’t take it otherwise. I can slap you, I am more stronger than you.” “That is not an issue Guruji. Let me tell you my issue.” “You have already taken 15 minutes.”
“Have you ever loved any one Guruji…anytime in your entire life?” I said, “This is the first time a disciple like you have met me who is asking such a question.” I continued, “Yes, I have loved a lot in my life, I loved my Gurus a lot, I have loved my Gods a lot.” “Don’t talk about these things Guruji! I am asking something different from you Guruji. You are not able to understand it.”, he said. He then again took out the photograph and looked at it. I could make out what was the matter now. I then said further, “Please be very specific as to what you want to ask from me. Don’t hesitate. I will not tell it to anyone.” “Have you ever loved anyone?”, he asked. “Why should I tell you, I am not liable to give answers to any of these questions. I might have loved someone, this life is so long…but why are you asking this question to me?”, I replied.
“I am asking this because only a lover can understand the feelings of other lover. Guruji, you won’t be able to understand my feelings. What do you understand about love Guruji…you won’t be understand love Guruji.”, he added. I said, “Let me know how much pain you are carrying in your heart. I might have had very little pain in my life and you might be having anenormous amount of pain in life. I am not sure whether I would even be able to understand your pain or not.”, I said. “No, you must first answer whether you have ever loved anyone in your life or not.”, he emphasized.
No, I have never loved someone in my life like you have been loving someone. Had I done something like this, my disciples would have thrown me into prison. I have never done anything like this in my life.”, I replied. “O Guruji! The thing is that I love someone.”, he said reluctantly. I said, “All the Indians don’t do anything else than this and when they don’t get success in love, they come to me. This is the second stage where you have come to meet me.” “No-no Guruji! Don’t take it as a joke. Please Guruji! Don’t consider it a joke.”, he added. I said, “I am not taking it as a joke.” He affirmed, “I have truly loved someone in my life Guruji!”
I said, “You have done a great work in your life. You have done something which no one would have been able to accomplish. This world is indebted to you, this complete India is indebted to you. What happened next?” He asked further, “Do you know Pushpa Guruji?” I replied, “I don’t know anyone named Pushpa. Pushpa is not the name of any river. If you would have said Ganga, I would have said that yes it is in Haridwar, if you would have mentioned Yamuna, I would have said yes it is in Delhi. I know Pushp (flower).” He said, “I am not talking about Pushp she Guruji! I am talking about Pushpa, Guruji!” I said, “No, I don’t know anyone named Pushpa. Tell me what is the matter.”
“Pushpa is the lady whom I love Guruji! If you come with me, I will show her to you. I guarantee that you would have not move out of Hapur if I show her. You would have stood spell bound there only. You would not have been able to move a step after watching her. I am telling you this Guruji.”, he added. I asked, “Then how were you able to move and come here?”
He added, “The thing is that Guruji, there was lots of love between us initially. I used to admire her daily, she never spoke a word to me, not even a single. I kept admiring her, but never paid any attention towards me. Now I am under your retreat and pray to you to perform any Tantrik operation such that she come running to me and say that she loves me a lot. Do something like this Guruji. I have heard a lot about you that you are a great preacher of Tantra-Mantra. I have read a lot of your books, your magazines. Have a look at this photograph.” He again took out the photograph and touched it to his eyes. I then asked him, “Have you ever talked to her?” He replied, “Guruji! This is the main issue. She lives in my neighborhood yet she never talked to me.
You have to promise that you will help me to attain her.”
I thought – He has already wasted my half an hour. This happens in love and there is nothing new in it. It is just that he is an addition in the field of Laila-Majnu.
I said, “Look I can’t help you. I have not opened any such agency. I can’t help you to meet her.” The moment I said these words, he fell down from the chair and fainted at that very moment….I thought that he is just enacting, however when I looked at his face, I found that foam was coming out of his mouth. I thought that this person is completely mad. I need to do something before anything unfortunate happens. I sprinkled some water on his face. My wife came running into the room after hearing the sound of someone falling on the ground and asked me, “What happened?”
I said, “Nothing, it’s because Pushpa didn’t come…..” Interrupting me in between she asked, “Who is Pushpa?” I replied, “I haven’t yet seen the photograph. It is in his pocket.” I took out the photograph from his pocket and found that it was of a lady and the photograph was shot from a distant place. I kept it back in his pocket thinking that it might happen that his heart stop beating if I will keep it away for a long time. I thought that perhaps this photograph is like a pacemaker for his heart.
It took more than an hour for him to regain consciousness. I tried everything in between. I made him smell shoes, put chilli powder in his nose, however he didn’t become normal. I thought that I might be charged for some foul case for ill-treating this man or giving him some water which fainted him. I took him out, it was summer, I swayed fan around him and called my disciples…. what could I have said to my disciples…I told them that he has fainted because of hot weather. My disciples said to me, “GuruJi! We request you not to meet anyone around 12 pm. Please take care of this thing in future.” I said, “I didn’t know that he would get unconscious around 12 pm and due to this reason only I met him.”
He came back to his senses around 4 pm and the first word he uttered was “Pushpa…. Pushpa”…..and then he stood up. I told him not to worry and that he was fine now. “No Guruji ! You first let me know what you will do.”, he insisted. I said, “Don’t worry. I am sitting here just to help you only.” I thought that it would become very difficult to control him if his madness again overpowers him. I continued, “I will go to Hapur along with you. I will bring her to you. You should stop worrying now.”
I have given an example of the relation between a lover and his beloved. Such is this relationship and if such a relationship is developed with God then you will get transformed into Meera, you will become Kabir, you will become Surdaas, then you will become Tulsidaas, then you will become Raidaas, then you will become Chaitanya…and when you have such a relationship with your Guru, then only Guru resides in your heart.
There should be a madness, an attachment, such that there should be no existence without Him. When we attain such a stage, then only we can claim that Guru resides in our soul. If you are very poor and a millionaire adopts you, then you will yourself become a millionaire, you will not have to earn that money. You don’t have to recite any Mantra, you don’t have to study Guru Upanishad or Shishyopanishad.
The moment you are able to attach your Guru to your soul, His entire knowledge, His entire mantra chanting, His entire consciousness will enter into you. Then you won’t have to accomplish any sadhana. Both of these paths are available, one in which you are able to establish Guru in your heart and other where you perform all the sadhanas and mantra chanting.
It is necessary to become a disciple if you want to travel on the first path. Being a disciple is to completely assimilate oneself into Guru and you don’t have any identity in this stage, if there is anything then that is Guru. Now there is no selfishness in it, I didn’t ask you to go and get me five crore rupees, however, “Twadiyam Vastu Govinda Tubhyamevam Samarpayet”…all this that I have in my life, everything related to me in this life, my money, my fame, my sons all belong to you. What all you have given to me, I am offering it back to you. Along with these, I also offer you my ill deeds, my false, my shortcomings, my problems and everything that is associated to me.
And when you will attain this stage, Guru will himself take all your problems on Himself and will solve them. When all the siddhis, nidhis, ten mahavidhyas dance before the Guru, then they will also dance before you.
Then it is not possible for any of your enemies to harm you because Goddess Kali will Herself take care of you, then Goddess Lakshmi will Herself give money to you. Then you will not have to join your hands before those Gods and Goddesses, there will be no need to chant their Hymns. You can either offer water to the leaf or to the root. If you offer the water to the root only, the entire tree, the leaves, the branches will get flourished. I bless you all that may you all love your Guru and your Guru loves you too. May all of you be deprived of all the suffering, pains and troubles in your life. I bless you all once again from the depth of my heart.
– SadhGuruDev Shri Kailash Shrimali
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